Songs!

These are songs that I wrote back when I was in school. Tell me what you think of them!

All Alone

I don't wanna be all alone anymore.

I can't take it.

I'm so lonely.

No one to talk to.

Just all by myself.

Every single day.

My life is just so miserable.

Being all alone sucks a lot.

I don't feel loved either.

Or anything like that.

I want to feel loved.

But it seems like it ain't happening at all.

I cry everyday for someone to love me for who I am and not someone I'm not.

Please be the one to save me from this misery.

I can't take it anymore.

I don't wanna be all alone.

It sucks to be like this.

All the time.

Every single day.

Of your life.

I need you that special someone to love.

Everyday of my life.

But, that has never came true yet.

No one loves me like that.

I feel heart broken.

All the time.

Please God don't let me go through this pain anymore.

It is killing me so much.

I wanna be loved so much.

It hurts inside terribly.

All the time.

Every single day of my life.

Being loved means the world to me.

I don't wanna be lonely anymore.

This pain hurts so much and it's been with me for years.

I don't want to be lonely for the rest of my life.

It hurts to hear that no one loves me like that.

I want someone to love.

Please let there be someone to love and for someone to care about me so terribly.

I don't want to be lonely anymore.

"This is what I Think Love is all about"

Love is all about being there for one another

You will not fight with each other

Spending time with each other for days, weeks, months and even years.

You will also be together for the rest of your lives.

Til death does its part

Being loved is the number one key in your life

You will be loved forever.

Then you would comfort each other when you are sad or even happy

Once in a while you will get in a fight over the dumbest things

But, that will seem okay because everybody gets into fights

I just wish I can find someone to love like that

No one even likes me

That doesn't even like me for who I am

It is always all about everyone's looks

Why can't they just like my personality other than my looks?

Nobody shouldn't be judged by your looks

They should choose who you are inside and not outside.

It's all about your personality and not your looks

You should believe in yourself that you are being loved by someone that cares so much about you.

Even if they don't judge by your looks

They will love you for who you are.

This is what I think love is all about.

"My Life"

Sometimes I hate it when people are so violent

I wish everything would stop

I want everybody to love each other

I don't like it when people beat each other up

No more fighting or violence in this world, please.

Why can't we just have people around here?

My whole life is all about fighting with each other.

I want to be loved and not to be the enemy

Being loved will mean a lot to me

The whole world is a big conflict about fighting over things like my life.

My life is more important to me and other people just don't get it.

They just are only to care about themselves and not my feelings.

Why can't we just make peace with each other in the world?

My life is going down the drain due to fighting.

I want people to not fight about stupid stuff.

I don't even like it when I am being bossed around.

My life is for me to do whatever I want to do and not for me to be bossed around by anybody who gets in my way.

Helping others is my goal to help other people with their lives such as mine.

People just fight over the dumbest things.

Why can't we make peace in this world of violence?

Now this is what my life is about.

It's all about fighting and not making peace with each other.

My adventure of Hershey,PA with 4 gents on NYE!

I am horrible at writing recaps, but here it goes.

I woke up around 5:45am the day of the show. I couldn't believe the day was there already! I got ready, packed my bag and started to bake the Hershey kiss peanut butter cookies that i was going to give them. My friend, Gina, came over around 6:30am to pick me up. We left around 7:45am. It was starting to snow and I was freaking out literally cause if it got worse we would have turned back home. That didn't stop us! The snow started to get bad around 9:30am. Gina was having a hard time controlling the car and it was skidding around. We got really scared, but then it started to stop the snow and it became a bit easier to drive. We got into Pennsylvania around 10am. I started to get super excited! We got at our hotel around 11am. We unpacked and settled in and then we decided to go eat. Cause we didn't eat anything in the morning and we were starving by the time we got there. Then we found the place for the M&G! Their were people there, so we decided to go there instead to wait! It was SUPER cold that day! Trust me I couldn't feel my hands! lol! Their parents came around close to 4 and they walked into the place. Rebecca and Kat came around 3:15pm to unpack all of the merchandise for us to buy. We were brought in around 4:15pm about. I decided to get a poster, and so did all of my friends. I taped some of my friend, Vivian's, meet and greet time until it was my turn. When I got to Jason I was like, "Hey!" and then he smiled. He's seems shy to me lol. Then when I got to Alex,"Hey what's up?!?" and he smiled and then I heard someone talking about red coats and Alex laughed and Michael was like I have been seeing all these red coats! I was like I have a red coat on too! Then Alex goes,"Yours must be nice and warm!" I'm like,"Yup! My step mother got it for me! It's super warm! Except for the fact it's really super cold out there!" and he laughed. Then I told him my grandparents are now up from PR(Puerto Rico) and how they are in a nursing home now and stuff. He was speechless cause he never knew i was Spanish since I don't look like it! lol! Then he said, "Cool!" and then I asked for a hug and he gave me one and he smiled back at me. Then it was my turn for Michael. He was like, "Hey how are you?" and I was like,"I'm fine and you." and then he said,"I'm great." I asked him if he got to my cd that I gave to him in NYC back in November. He was like,"I haven't gotten to it yet since I am still trying to go through all the fan stuff lol! I was like,"that's okay. I understand." Michael then smiled back at me. Then it was Andy's turn. When I got to him he was like,"Hey! How are you?" I'm like, I'm fine and it's sure cold out there! I can't feel my hands! lol!" He then laughed and I was like, "I took off work just to see you guys!" Then he was like,"Cool. You must be filing all the medication for those sick people!" I'm like, "Yeah even those C2's(i spelt it this way cause i can't spell it the right way lol). He laughed and said, "Hahahaha. See you later!" Then he smiled. We walked out and I was so happy that it was my 11th or 12 th time meeting them and they are still the same gents I love to death<3


Then we left which was around 4:30pm. We went out food searching and it ended up to be Houlihan's! Their food is really good there! Then afterwards we decided to go wait outside for our spots for their performance. We got there around 5:30pm. We waited out there and I met a few fans like Michele and Hailey who are very nice! Then I went over and talked to Kat and Rebecca for a few and got a picture with them! It started to rain about then. It was so nasty out yet I waited out there for them! I didn't care if it was snowing, sleeting, hailing, or raining I was going to be still out there for them! We waited out there until around 7pm I think it was they let all us in for our spots! I got front row to the right with my friends. It started to get colder and colder by the time they got on. They had their soundcheck around 8pm. They played Full Moon Crazy, Two Rebels, and I forgot the other song. lol. Then around 9:15pm it was time for them to perform. They played Full Moon Crazy, Two Rebels, Over You, Where Are You Now, Don't Close the Book with some of the song called, "Down", Sing for You, and a lot more that I can't remember. They did an amazing job! They were on fire that night! They all gave speeches during Don't Close the Book. They were very heart warming speeches. I love them like crazy. Michael loved looking over at me and my friend's the whole time. He noticed on how we were having a great time! I went back to my hotel room after their performance and my hands were red and swollen and my friend wanted me to go back there, but I just couldn't feel anything anymore and now I regret it since they came out afterwards and took pictures. Oh well Maybe next time. I still love them either way.


My story about my time in Hershey the next day will be up this week! :]


-Nikki D. Duh!




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Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4KpIuknSunA